Pretty much like my first toy, except he had one of those annoying rubsign stickers. |
Let's wrap this up.
Lemme tell you a little bit about my
mom. My mom was an cranky southern mother that argued with me all the
time. She often called me the worst of the three, not because I did
anything wrong like got arrested, got a girl knocked up or worse like
my older brothers... But when she got up and angry at them, they ran
away. I didn't. I yelled back. She yelled back more. I yelled back
more. It was an interesting cycle that was probably one of the big
reasons my dad has lost his hair. She always talked down to me, she
played favorites, and she was stubbornly prideful like crazy and
would rather lose friendships and family than have to admit she was
wrong. If you listened in to an average conversation with me and her,
you'd assume that we couldn't stand each other and couldn't wait to
get the hell away from each other. But you'd be wrong. She was also a
loving mother. As many friends would say, when she loved you, she
loved you unconditionally. While she never liked the idea of me going
to art school, she supported me... Even when I was making a dumb
mistake, and she knew it... She supported me. (And she never said I
told you so, because I already knew it.) She had these quirks that
came across more as charming than annoying. When I had friends over
really late, she'd yell upstairs to us what time it was. We all knew
what she was trying to say: “Dave Wayne, it's 3AM! Tell your loser
friends to go home!” (She always called me Dave Wayne. I was almost
named John Wayne Reynolds, until my dad realized that they couldn't
name me that, because I'd sound like I'd have a serial killer or a
drunk bar patron's name.) One time, me and James were upstairs
burning some incense, while watching the cartoons. And she smelled
it, called me downstairs and accused us of smoking pot. And while we
weren't, the truth was much more pathetic that these two
twenty-something dorks were alone upstairs, burning patchouli,
watching Ninja Turtles on a Friday night. We really should have owned
up to that accusation instead. The funniest part came the following
Monday when we told a friend and he just nonchalantly said “It's
not even harvest season yet.” And while she did get on my nerves,
and some of my friends' nerves as well... Everyone who ever got to
know her, loved her.
My mom bought me my first Transformer:
Bumblebee. (It was the red one.) Here was this little pudgy beetle,
that she found adorable, and she even knew him by name. Later on,
when she found the yellow one at the stores, she got me him as well.
When it came to toy collecting for children, she wasn't like other
mothers... The toys came with these catalog sheets, which showed all
the available toys that came out in that year. She'd get a new boxed
toy at the beginning of the year to get the sheet from it, and she'd
mark down the ones I had. It's not like she went out and bought me
Transformers all the time... We weren't loaded. But it helped for
Birthdays, Christmas, other stuff. When Goldbug came out, I came home
from school and there's Goldbug! Later on when he was a Pretender,
guess what I found when I got him from school as well. Same with the
Action Master. (She even snagged me the G2 Bumblebee which I still
have! The Pretender one as well.) I mentioned in part one and two
that as I got older, I still kept with this buying Transformers
nonsense, and she kept helping me out on it. Even as I got older,
this was kind of out Mother-Son bonding thing. I mean, she didn't
know what a Unicron was, or the names of the various characters, and
she mainly knew the Autobots and Decepticons as “the good guys had
the red text and bad guys had the purple text”, but she made do and
she was awesome. Though she didn't really like the Beast Wars as the
whole insects, dinosaurs and wild animals were never her thing, she
always liked the cars. Her dream car was a Chevy Camaro. She had
always liked how they looked, and she LOOOOVED the new ones.
I cannot explain how much she loved this car. |
Like I said, she didn't really know
their names, but can you imagine how she flipped out when she found
out that not only was there going to be a yellow Camaro in the
Transformers movie, but it was Bumblebee? And he beeped and made cute
noises! (Yeah, I know. The rest of us hated that. But my mom was in
her late 50s, and she also liked Herbie the Love Bug. She can be
forgiven.) She saw and liked the first movie a lot. I remember
Christmas 2007, my nephew Mark had asked for Bumblebee, Jazz and
Megatron for Christmas. My mom looks at me and says “You get the
other two. I have no idea who the hell they are.” During Christmas,
she said there was some Transformer she got me, but she couldn't find
it as it was misplaced in the spare bedroom. (The spare bedroom was a
serious mess!) She was feeling pretty sick, so I told her it wasn't a
big deal, and that we'll find it eventually. As much as we argued all
the time, we made an awesome team, me and my mom.
Obviously from me talking in past
tense, you can guess that she passed away. She died of kidney
complications in March of 2008. I won't lie... I'm still dealing with
issues about it. One day, months later, in April or something, while
cleaning the spare bedroom up, I came across a movie Offroad Ironhide
toy. How many people get a posthumous Christmas present from their
mother? I still have that one on a shelf, next to my Powermaster
Prime. It's never going anywhere. You see, this may sound kinda
hippy, dippy Drift, but every time I buy a Transformer...
Particularly a Bumblebee... It's kinda part of my mom for me. It's
probably THE reason I don't have such a hate-on for Bumblebee like
many others have developed. Corny? Maybe... But I'm pretty sure you
can guess I don't really care if you think it is.
So let's move onto something a little
less somber, shall we? It was early 2007, and I was underway on
production of Shadowgirls. I thought I knew all I needed to know, but
damn was I wrong. There was so many things I still had to figure out.
The biggest problem I had was coloring the book. You see, I had a
colorist... HAD being the key word. Then I guess the World of
Warcraft happened, and I never heard from him again. (It was for the
best.) I had to make a creative choice: Have the book be in black and
white, or color it myself.
Seriously, my coloring back then consisted of color dodges and burns. |
Now, those of you who have color comic
pages before, you know what a pain it can be. It's a highly
underrated creative process of the comic book production process. A
good colorist can turn mediocre and even bad lineart into something
beautiful. A good colorist is NOT to be underestimated in importance.
But all I wanted was for Shadowgirls not to look like ass. (Even
though there was a lot of fish monster butt in there.) The thing is,
I would have settled for a mediocre coloring style, but I was putting
a lot of effort into this. I wanted it to be something special if
possible. I tried my hand at coloring it and I was in over my head.
It was taking way too long for me to do this. There was no way I
could color a book like this on a regular consistent basis. (At this
time, we hadn't decided to make it a webcomic yet.) I just kept
thinking I was screwing up, that I wasn't doing it “right”. I was
not a fast colorist, and it's not that I minded doing the work
myself... But I just needed some pointers and help in making sure I
was doing this right. Which is the big problem with a lot of aspiring
colorists.
One of the problems that I've noticed
with a lot of artists, is that for some reason, a good number of us
are not all that forthcoming when it comes to helping others become
better artists. It's kinda weird. It's like we're protective of our
techniques, even though we're well aware that our art styles are
unique to ourselves. And if we try to help, we'll be a bit vague
about how we did things, or spout that usual crap of “it's best to
find your own technique.” (Which is true, but it's never a bad
thing to have a springboard to launch from.) And it's not like
artists are doing this on purpose, they're totally not. They're
probably just not comfortable giving artistic advice to people when
in actuality, they're still not 100% certain what the hell they may
be doing themselves.
Around this time, IDW had put out a
Transformers comic adaptation of the 1986 animated movie. (I only
managed to get two issues of it and I never had the chance to buy the
collection.) But it was written by Bob Budiansky, the guy who wrote
all those (sometimes good, sometime awful) Transformers stories back
in the old Marvel days. And drawn by Don Figueroa, who I explained
last time how he influenced me. But it was also colored by this one
guy who I every now and then talked to on DeviantArt. Some nerd named
Josh Burcham. You may not have heard of him. I don't think he's gone
on to do anything major since then. Except for a bunch of
Spotlights... Maximum Dinobots... All Hail Megatron... The live
action movie prequel... Last Stand of the Wreckers... More than Meets
the Eye... :p
Cover to Last Stand of the Wreckers which was colored by Josh. If you haven't, you really should read it. |
Anyway, so one night, I'm talking to
Josh, and I asked him about coloring that adaptation. Because it had
that nice blend of 1980's animation coloring that I liked. It was how
I wanted to color like. So I asked him. (Kind of like I ask Don about
drawing.) Josh walked me through coloring a pinup. Just simple
techniques that he uses to help color a picture. And he explained it
to me in simple words.
“Did you color it this way?”
“No, I did it like this.”
“But what about that?”
“I did this.”
“And that?”
“Like that.”
And yeah, a lot of that stuff I already
knew... But it was never explained. I thought I might have been doing
it wrong. But I wasn't... I just needed a different focus. I was
able to streamline my coloring process and basically color faster and
better. Throughout 2000-2006, I stat through and listened in and read
up on so many coloring tutorials and guidelines and art books that
pointed me in the right direction, sure, but none of them were as
helpful as a colorist taking the time to explain simple things to me.
To him, he was being cool, and it wasn't no big thing for him. You
can look back on my early gallery, around early '07 and see and you
can see right when I switched. I had some rough spots in the
beginning, but I think it picked up greatly and quickly. Everyone of
you who's reading this (that didn't know me from before) is probably
because of my artwork, or because of Shadowgirls... And my coloring
has become such an integral part of my artwork. And while my coloring
has improved and evolved greatly in the past few years, it all has
the constructive foundation from those simple coloring techniques he
explained to me almost six years ago.
Hopefully by now, everything I've been
getting at for these last five days is starting to come together just
why I'm so faithful to this franchise and this fanbase. It's been
really good to me. Whenever I was at a low point, whenever I was
wondering what the point was to being a cartoonist, whenever things
were just plain old shitty in my life... Some aspect of the
Transformers were there to light my dar-
...I am not saying it...
So be it Josh helping me learn to color
better, or Don inspiring me to be a better penciller, or Dreamwave
giving us artists hope or meeting my first true friends at college,
or my first real comic book where people actually read it... Or
finding a toy my mom meant for me to have for the last Christmas I
ever got to spend with her. Look, I'm well aware how melodramatic and
saccharin all this sounds, and I honestly don't give a crap. Because
I care about the Transformers. It's not my lifestyle. I don't have an
Autobot tattoo, I don't sleep in Optimus Prime jammies and I'm not
gonna be naming my kids Blurr or Thunderwing. (Though I am tempted by
Slag!) But it is something I'm passionate about. Like I am about
animation, cooking, DC Comics, classical movies, pulp novels and even
astronomy.
In the end... I care about the
Transformers, because it has cared about me.
And that's all.
2 comments:
*sniffle* Why are you cutting onions at this time of the morning?!
All kidding aside, this was fantastic. Thank you for letting us peek into your brain for a little while. It was awesome.
Loved your retrospective. I'm probably 8-10 years younger than you, so I got into Transformers in that late-G1 era where it was fading away, and to a little kid it seemed like it would never come back. The only G1 products I saw at retail was Marvel issue 77 and a bunch of Micro Masters and Action Masters. Then...silence.
Anyway I could go on and on. I had a similar Internet-awakening like yours, but it came later. I never really encountered the Trans-fandom at large until I went to Botcon in 2000. And hell, I even think I remember Transfandom.com.
Great memories. And it's great to see that the Transformers world I thought had died in 1991 is showing no signs of slowing down.
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